Systems that propagate

Systems of nature need to incentivise you to survive. If they didn't, then your very basic needs wouldn't be met.

You need to feel hungry to feel a desire to eat, ultimately to fuel the body. You need to feel the urge to procreate; otherwise, the species dies out. The need to find shelter, to build community, and so on.

The desire must not result in total fulfilment. It isn't designed to do that. It's designed to demand again. And again. If you ate food and then hunger was permanently satiated, the body would wither.

All systems are some expression of this basic mechanism, from the ant to macroeconomics.

Rebelling in a deeply personal way isn't to deny this. It's to own it completely and to simultaneously internalise it to such a level that it becomes clear that this doesn't define your entire experience.

But rather, to say my experience of aliveness is so much more, so much more total than simply the body's or mind's desire and need to survive.

It's rebellion at the most fundamental level.